I’m writing this letter sat at my desk while you watch your dad cook our usual Sunday roast. Sebastian you are 3, Ophelia you are 2 and Rosalie you are 1. Life for us, right now, is good. It’s by no means perfect and there’s lots of changes in the years to come for all of us to be exactly where we want to be and enjoy our lives together even more.
All I want is for all of us to be 100% happy, and for the most part we are, but me and your dad have had a rough few years. Which one day I will go into detail, but for now my babies, here is a letter for you.
Motherhood has become the most, scariest, stressful, full on milestone in my life. But you three munchkins, are the greatest gifts anyone could wish for. I love being your mummy, even its it not perfect.
Today, I’ve woken up to your smiling faces and your giggles, I love hearing you all playing in the play room when I wake up, it fills my heart with a warmth that I cannot describe. I’ve fed you, played games with you, watched films snuggled up on the sofa with you. I’ve changed your stinky bums and Seb I’ve cleaned up the puddles of pee you leave on the bathroom floor because your forgot to use the step again, and aim and fire!
Phee today you’ve made me smile and laugh at the most simple of things. Rosa you are still little enough to give me those newborn like snuggles I cherished!
You have all taught me how to live in the moment, to be in the here and now. We have the best of fun, and you have shown me that nothing else really matters as long as we are happy and together. You three have shown me what love truly is.
You are so close in age, some days I struggle, no in fact most days is a struggle at some point. I sometimes feel like I’m losing my shit and want to pull my hair out. Other times I feel like I got everything together, I feel like I finally have a grip on this whole motherhood thing! But no matter what I love you all and nothing will ever change that. You three and your dad are the greatest things that have ever happened to me!
Words will never be able to describe the love a mother has for her children. It’s so many thoughts, feelings and emotions, that it’s just too hard to articulate into words. I’m sure one day you will understand, when you have children of your own you’ll know what I’m jabbering on about!
I want you all to know that no matter what, your dad and I will be here, even when we are not, we will still be worth you spirit, just like your great nanny is still with me. I don’t just want to be your mum, I want to be your best friend, your counsellor, the person you come to first if you have a problem, or if shit ever hits the fan (I hope it never does, but just in case). I will be here whenever you need me to listen, to guide and to love you unconditionally.
Every day you all amaze me and I’m sure you always will. I really am so proud to be your mummy, and even on our hardest of days, there’s a spark in each of you, letting me know that I can do this that I am a good mum, and that you are not just demon children trying to drive me insane.
” Insanity is hereditary, you get it from your children”. – Sam Levenson
I promise to be the best mummy I can be. I promise to keep you safe, to teach you, to help you grow into kind, caring and loving human beings.
‘Each day of our lives we made deposits in the memory banks of our children’. – Charles R. Swindoll
Making memories is possibly one of the greatest gifts any parent can give to their children. I have so many lovely memories, and memoires that have made me who I am today. Not all memories will be fantastic, and some of them you may even want to forget (none of us really know what life has in store for us), but it’s those memories that make you strong, that teach you life lesson for the better. But I promise to make only good, happy memories with you, these will be the memories that you remember the most. When your dad and me have left this world for the spirit realm, these will be the memories that you cherish forever, and when your older and watching your children and maybe even your children’s children you’ll know exactly what memories I’m going on about.
I promise to make so many memories with you, and even though your a little young right now to remember every single one, I promise to keep these memories alive. I will hold these memories close to me, and remind you of the fun and laughter we’ve had along the way. Because my babies, 3 years in and it’s already been one hell of an adventure, hey maybe I’ll even write a book for you all one day!
Just remember, no matter how big you get, your still my babies, I carried you, gave birth to you and everything else since, but most of all I love you, I love the bones of each of you and I always will.
Read this letter when you need some answers to life, I hope this letter will remind you that I am always here, whenever and whatever you may need me for. This probably won’t be the last letter I write to you, but this letter is a special one, keep it close my loves!
All my love, always
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